Currently Listening Stop All the World Now By Howie Day Collide see related

collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

Currently Watching Hairspray (Full-Screen Edition) By John Travolta, Michelle Pfeiffer, Nikki Blonsky, Zac Efron see related

the nicest kids in town.

i love how there are those people who are naive enough to believe that secrets are actually kept.  that no one's going to find out.  that you can trust the people around you to know when something's a secret.  you know what?  try believing in something else.

it amazes me how you can do so much for someone and get absolutely nothing in return.  not that i've ever expected anything in return.  that's not my motivation for being a good person.  i suppose i'm left to take what i can get.  that's the thing about being the nice girl.  you never get first pick.  you get the shaft because everyone knows that you're not going to complain.  everyone knows that even when you get what no one else wanted, you'll still be happy simply because you have something.  and i don't mind.  but do you really think that i'm not going to notice?  do you really think that i'm stupid enough to not catch on?  because if you do, you have strongly underestimated me.  i notice.  i catch on.  don't get me wrong though.  because you know what?  i still don't complain.  i have nothing to complain about.  i'm perfectly happy with what i have.  and i wouldn't trade my life, my family, my friends for anything.

Currently Listening All Sides By Lmnt Open Your Eyes (to Love) see related

if you'd just realize...

you've been searching the world to find true love,
looking in all the wrong places.
when all of the time you've been blind to love,
as plain as the nose on your face is.

it's here.  it's now.
open your eyes and see it.
right here.  right now.
open your eyes to love.

you've been down on yourself thinking something is wrong,
wondering why love has never found you.
don't you know it's been right here all along?
if only you'd look around you.

it's here.  it's now.
open your eyes and see it.
right here.  right now.
open your eyes to love.

love has been right by your side,
so close that you couldn't see.
if love could speak, it would shout to the sky,
"i've always been here.  i always will be."

i'm here.  i'm now.
open your eyes and see.
right here.  right now.
open your eyes to love.

open your eyes.
open your mind to love.
open your heart to love.

you know what?  call me a hopeless romantic.  tell me that those love stories in movies never happen in real life.  but that won't change this.  i still want a guy to look at me like that.  to say those things to me.  to kiss me like that.  to hold me like that.  to love me like that.  to be that guy.  the one you see onscreen and ask yourself why you can't find someone like him.  he's out there.  i know he is.  i have a thought.  i have a hope.  i have a crush.  wouldn't you like to know?

i gotta go my own way...

so.  my love life = messed up.  a lot.  do i like it?  no.  it's just SO f-ed up.  and i'm not entirely sure how it got to this point, but i'm not a big fan of it.  we're bringing back the numbering system of men again, for those of you who were present for that LAST time that my relationship life was messed up.  oh wait.  that's pretty much ALL the time.  and i haven't even BEEN in a relationship for approximately TWO YEARS now.  THAT'S saying something.  really.  there's number one, who is by NO MEANS the superior one of the bunch.  infact, there really ISN'T a superior one of the bunch.  they're all equally unappealing, but for different reasons.  good times.  it adds a little spice to life.  i might prefer bland life right now, actually.  i enjoy spice, but this is just awkward.  anyway, number one.  yea... i was friends with him throughout elementary school, but we've kind of drifted apart since then.  i DID have a crush on him in 5th grade a little bit, but i DON'T ANYMORE.  i haven't really minded that we've drifted.  we were never really that close anyway... sad, but true.  i started hanging out with him a LITTLE bit more last year, but i also thought that he liked one of my friends because that's what i heard.  and i was good with that.  i NEVER thought that he liked me, but he randomly started messaging me this summer & we messaged back & forth.  it was never anything spectacular though.  it was all very polite.  it was a lot of small-talk conversation.  it didn't really mean anything to me.  MAYBE it meant that we were becoming friends again, but NOTHING past that.  i didn't take it as anything special for a while... i started to get a hunch, but i kind of ignored it.  HOWEVER, he THEN asked me to a movie & i was like, okay... sure.  casual dating.  cool.  i'm up for that.  BEFORE we even went to the movie together though, he ASKED me out.  like, OFFICIALLY asked me out.  and i didn't know what to say!  i DON'T like him in that way.  i just DON'T.  but i'm not the kind of person who just rejects someone to their face.  i probably SHOULD have because THEN, i wouldn't be in this mess, but that's just not who i am, unless i have a SOLID and legitimate reason to reject them (such as a scheduling problem.  not that i just don't WANT to).  we went to the movie.  i DIDN'T have that great of a time.  it was A LOT of polite conversation again.  plus, i was comparing it to my previous casual date with number two (don't worry... he's coming) and when it came down to it, number two won by a LANDSLIDE.  aaaaaaaaaaaand yea.  i don't really feel like writing any MORE than i already have.  i feel like sleeping, so i'm going to.  good night!